-- The 2 Most Important Men In My Life --

I love both of you so much...I love both of you with all my heart...but why is it so hard to please both of you at the same time?

If I want to have fun and spend time with A, I will have to lie to B so that I can spend time with A...I hate this kind of feeling...I love you too B, but you see, I spend most of my time with you...that's why I want to spend more time with A...

I really hate lying to you B, my conscience will always prick me whenever I lie to you...do you know that my heart hurts me very much whenever I see you being so frustrated and sad when I choose not to listen to you?

But A needs me too...I need 2 accompany A at times also right? A is such a fun guy, he listens to me, plays around with me and accompanies me whenever I need him...

I really hope I would not need to suffer in between both of you anymore...I love both of you more than anything...trust me...I really do...

Expect the Unexpected

Never expected that you will call me last night...
Never expected that we can talk on the phone in d same way again...
Never expected that we can actually end our conversation in a nice way as we tend to end our conversations with quarrels every time...

U asked me, how to start off...I answered, I don't know...I hate the fact that there is this awkwardness in between us...but I know that it is unavoidable...

I really really hope that, if we can start all over again, everything will not be the same...I don't want to go back to the same old and stupid relationship...anyway, I'll try my best to make things work out...and if things work out, I'll definitely appreciate you more than anything:)

Single and Availabe = :) or :(

Ms K. :" Even though next time you have a bf..if you 'dam dai' me...and we're not like how we use to be right now...we won't go out every wednesday...you won't call me every night...we won't chat in msn that often...I'm still okay with it...cos' at least you found your soul mate..."
"You have to be strong, cos' no matter what it is, I'll still be by your side to support you..."

~You know or not, among all my friends who comfort me, Ms K, you're the only one who made me cry my heart out.. cos' I was so touched...~

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It's been more than a month since ' the break up'...everything went back to normal...no more crying...the urge to be back together seem to fade away too...I knew that we will end up like this...but I never thought that this day will come so soon...this day came to sudeen...toooooo sudden till I did not know how 2 react...

I knew that we would not be happy together...never ending fights...never ending quarells...maybe both of us does not really match after all...you're sick of me...and so am I...

3 years together...we tolerated each other for 2 years...I couldn't let go at first...but, as days go by...I realized that without me, you could be much more happier...I decided to let go, cos' I love you more than anything...I want to see you happy...

You said I'm a burden to you...You know when you said this, it just reminds me of when u carry me, you said no matter how heavy am I, you'll never put me down...when you said that I'm a burden, I knew clearly that all this have to come to an end...as I know that, you could not take this any longer...

Well, you taught me a lot a lot...at least I'm independant and strong enough to face anything by myself now...I always take everything for granted, but now I know that I have to appreciate things when beautiful things are around me...


~Thanks to all of my friends who gave me support and comfort...thanks for accompanying me during my 'down' period...so sweet of you all^^~